| She
established herself as a badass neo-soul bohemian muso with her
'93 Maverick Records debut, Plantation Lullabies, thumb-slapping
her bass and singing in a husky tone that underscored her much-
ballyhooed androgyny. She could taunt another female with
the nonchalant, predatory sexuality of "If That's Your Boyfriend
(He Wasn't Last Night)," then turn around and crystallize the longing
and hope that sustain us in the face of adversity ("I'm Diggin'
You Like an Old Soul Record"). Though her shaved head and
avowed bisexuality got her some headlines, MeShell Ndegeocello positioned
herself neither as hapless, pining love object nor musical clay
for a male producer, and this (literally) maverick stance cost her
the brass ring of urban-radio megastardom.
Instead,
she cultivated her eccentricities, joining John Mellencamp for
a raucous cover of Van Morrison's "Wild Night" (which vaulted
her, briefly, into the mainstream) and creating a deeply ambitious,
symphonic soul tapestry on her second full-length, Peace Beyond
Passion. That album's first single, "Leviticus: Faggot,"
was a tough-minded meditation on homophobia, family dysfunction
and loneliness with the musical reach of Stevie Wonder in his
prime. It also guaranteed, in the real world of idiot radio
programmers, her record's commercial failure.
To her label's
credit, it has stood behind her steadfastly. With her latest
album, Bitter, she has honored that commitment with
a great work of art. That Bitter is unquestionably
a masterpiece of naked feeling and timeless musicality doesn't
mitigate the likelihood that it, too, will be ignored in the
marketplace. But
Ndegeocello
doesn't
give a shit about
that, and neither should you. |
Bitter
traces the aftermath of a breakup, with all its recriminations,
revelations, rationalizations, revisions and retrospective raunch.
After a lush, orchestral instrumental prelude ("Adam"), it settles
into the mournful "Fool of Me." It's almost unsettling to
hear Ndegeocello without any of her armor; gone are the bass funkasaurus,
the craft-
conscious virtuoso, the avenging amazon. Instead a woman
quietly murmurs "You made a fool of me/Tell me why/You say that
you don't care but we made love." The incredulity here barely
conceals the utter devastation that is processed throughout Bitter.
But what's truly wondrous is that it never feels like a wallow.
This is partly due to the unerring honesty on display here, combined
with Ndegeocello's remarkable musical instincts. But it
also issues from the fact that at her most vulnerable, she reveals
a remarkable strength and integrity.
Not that things
don't get rough. In "Faithful," she is defiant as she acknowledges
her sexual roving, the payoff of which is illustrated deliciously
in the otherworldly groove of "Satisfy." Then
the title track returns to the stark pain of disconnection, and
the song's |
tender
musical setting only reinforces the feeling of nerve endings laid
bare.
Ndegeocello
retreats into the spiritual realm with a languid rendition of
Jimi Hendrix's "May This Be Love," finding in the song's "waterfall"
the wellspring of inspiration that the late, great guitarist's
work offers all venturesome artists. "Sincerity" looks in
on a relationship where the love flows in only one direction,
and repeats its verdict "He loves with sweetness and sincerity/
While she can only pretend" like a forlorn mantra. In "Loyalty,"
meanwhile, two lovers seek refuge in a pledge not to betray one
another. The earnest desire of the haiku-like "Beautiful"
gives way to the instrumental "Eve" (a counterpoint to the opener).
There's a return to judgment in the laid-back soul of "Wasted
Time," but the song ends in the middle of a phrase, as though
the tape-loop in the betrayed one's mind finally just shuts off.
It's replaced by the opening notes of the closer, "Grace."
In its elegance,
directness and beauty, "Grace" is more than the album's literal
grace note. It's Bitter in miniature, a distillation
of spiritual resolve and commitment that glows like a campfire
in the snow. "Your love's my only saving grace/You caress my heart,
kiss my face," sings Ndegeocello perhaps to a new lover, or to
God. Whoever the addressee of this devout and incandescent
missive, it's open to us all. In a time of unparalleled
musical calculation, numbed-out brutality and whorish sentiment,
a true artist has given us all a profound gift.
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